July 8, 2010

I am indebted to friends and family for the love and support you've given to me, Nick and Tyler throughout Jeff's illness and continuing after his death. 
The trip to Nantucket and NYC has been healing for us.  It is so good to laugh even though the grief is far from over.  Jeff has touched so many lives and will forever be in our hearts.
Reality will set in over the next couple of weeks as the three of us settle into our lives again.  The daily routine will be very different from what we've known the past three years.   How I wish to spend another day with my best friend.  Sometimes the lonliness is unbearable but I know it'll be okay.
Tomorrow, Cheryl, Tyler, Harley and me will begin our long drive back to Viking country.  Please keep us in your prayers.
Love you all!

A


June 27, 2010

Please join our family in celebrating  Jeff’s life.  His visitation is tomorrow, Monday, June 28 from 4pm-7pm at Washburn-McReavy Eden Prairie Chapel, 7625 Mitchell Rd.   His funeral mass will be held at 3pm on Tuesday, June 29 at the Basilica of St. Mary, Hennepin Ave. at 17th St.



June 26, 2010

Our family lost one of their greatest members today.  Jeff's body finally succumbed to ALS.  May he now be at peace.


June 23, 2010

Jeff had a better night and has slept all day.  He requires a lot of sedation to keep him comfortable.  I did get an order to increase his valium because today it was nearly impossible to suction him or clean his mouth.

I let Jeff listen to some music on my ipod.  I know he heard it but there was little response from him.  Hopefully it was a nice experience.

More tomorrow...



June 22, 2010

Jeff had a tough overnight. We will begin scheduling pain/anxiety meds around the clock.  We had just been giving him scheduled doses during the day and waiting for him to ask for more during the night instead of bothering him while sleeping.  It seems like he needs more meds more often otherwise it takes several hours to get him to a peaceful state.  Every day something changes so we roll with it and get creative.  His muscle tone in his jaw has greatly increased over the past 2 days.  It is so difficult to suction him and give him oral cares with his jaw clamped down.  Perhaps more valium??? 
This disease is really rotten.  Thank goodness for hospice support and drugs!



June 21, 2010

Jeff is beginning to show abnormalities in a few of his organ functions.   I have bumped up the dosages of his pain and anxiety medications to maintain his comfort.  Sometimes medication management can be tricky.  He is very comfortable today but has not been fully awake since midnight last.

His first home health aide visit was this morning.  To my relief, she was very good.

I love having family near.  The weight on my shoulders has lifted some. 

Love and thanks to family and friends for all that you do.





June 20, 2010

Happy Father's Day!

It has been nothing short of busy around our house since Jeff's been back home. 
Jeff seems relatively stable but he is on lots of medication.  He sleeps much of the day but has had some alert periods when he has been able to share a smile or two. We anticipate many visits this week from the hospice people.  More family members will be coming and going. 
Thanks for the love you keep sending to us!


June 18, 2010

Jeff came home yesterday.  Unfortunately, it was a long, chaotic, and stressful day. Today will be much better.   

There are several family members visiting and helping when they are able.  Thank you!




June 16, 2010

I had a meeting with hospice this morning and I am amazed at their level of efficiency, compassion and attention to detail.  They provide so many necessary services.

Jeff's discharge from the hospital has been delayed until tomorrow.  All of the home arrangements will take more time.  There will be a lot of activity with all of the supplies and equipment either being picked up or delivered to our house.  I do not want to leave a stone unturned so that Jeff has everything he needs.

It has been a very emotional day for me.  I guess I'm riding the stages of grief rollercoaster.  


 

June 15, 2010

Jeff did come but was readmitted to the hospital the next day.  He began having severe problems with secretions and showing signs of respiratory distress most likely caused by aspiration.  His physicians described his situation as "tenuous" and thus began the dreaded conversation about end of life decisions. 

He is in the ICU and will be coming home (for good) sometime tomorrow.  Hospice will be involved with our family.

He is loved so much and we are going to make him feel safe, comfortable, and not alone. 

Please pray for peace and comfort for him.  He is very anxious and scared.



June 13, 2010

Jeff is coming home today.  He will travel by ambulance because he is weak and will need oxygen and suction availablility.  There are many things to coordinate in the next couple of days.  The docs are trying to obtain skilled nursing, physical therapy, occupational therapy and possibly home health aide visits.  We are not sure how many and what type of visits will be authorized but it is recommended that PT/OT stagger their visits for a total of 3 times a week for two weeks.  I will be touching base with Jeff's ALS clinic at least once weekly to update them on his breathing, level of sleepiness and muscle tone/spasticity. This information will assist them with necessary adjustments in Jeff's medications and BiPap settings.  He will begin wearing a neck brace when he is sitting and doesn't have a head rest.  This will definitely apply to his shower chair.  Our sleeping arrangements will probably be altered so that someone sleeps close to Jeff at night.  He has no way to call for help except with his voice (moaning).  It is difficult to hear his calls through the BiPap mask and it's unlikely that the sound will travel effectively through the baby monitor that we were using.
 
I will try to post updates when I am able but this week will be challenging with all of the changes and adjustments and Nick leaving out of town for a week. 

Thanks to the Lenz family for adopting Tyler this weekend since I could not attend his basketball tournaments.  Thanks to Renee who came over yesterday to clean.  She is nothing short of amazing.  Thanks to Pam for taking care of Harley while he was home alone for more than 10 hours yesterday.  Thanks to Nate who mowed the lawn this past week.  Thanks to Pat who took my truck into the shop and had my brakes fixed.  I sure needed all of you (and still do)!



June 11, 2010

Note from Anne:

It was a busy day at the hospital.  Jeff was moved to a new room and thankfully there is an extra bed for his caregivers to use should they have an opportunity to relax. 

Jeff will be discharged on Sunday unless something unforseen happens.  I am overwhelmed with how much work it will require to take care of Jeff once he returns home.  Some things might improve but I know eventually how the story goes with ALS.  It saddens me and frustrates me and angers me and I am scared.

Nothing really new is going on with Jeff.  He is smiling, laughing and sleeping.  Once in awhile he'll try to wink at me.  I guess he hasn't lost his desire to flirt:)

Today and tomorrow are days to tie up loose ends in preparation for his discharge.  Lots to do...





June 10, 2010

Ben survived a night at the hospital.  He is such a sweetheart.  I must also let it be known that I'd be lost without Nick.  I am so proud him and his selfless committment to Jeff and our family.  Thanks to everyone else who take the time to send their love and prayers to us.  A special thanks to Jake and Cathy who organized the "Run for Jeff" and to those who graciously donated to the cause.

Today Jeff had his IV pain meds and pump regulated tube feedings discontinued.  He will begin receiving pain meds through his feeding tube and bolus feedings given by gravity. 
His liver enzymes decreased and his potassium level is better. 
He was transferred to a chair for the first time since he's been hospitalized.  It sure helped to loosen some of his secretions.  It seems like I did nothing but suction him for a good 30 minutes. 
His muscle tone is such a troublesome issue.  His jaw was assessed and massaged but he needs quite a bit of physical therapy work before he gets back to baseline.  It is believed that the changes in his tone and spasticity are directly related to all of the issues with his gut.  In other words, the insult of the gallbladder disease on his body has pissed off his muscles and they have tensed up.  Jeff's neck muscles are so tired.  He may need to start wearing a brace to support his head and neck when he is sitting up.  We are hoping that we can have some physical therapy home visits approved for Jeff. 
Good news:  the BiPap was approved by insurance so he will not require another sleep study. 

Love to all. 



June 9, 2010

Jeff's swelling has really improved!  The lasix did wonders but it also messed with his potassium level so he is receiving supplements again. 
Jeff has now developed thrush in addition to the yeast infection on his bottom.  His bottom does look much better but he will have a new drug started for the thrush. 
Jeff really likes how well he sleeps when he uses the BiPap.  He may have another sleep study before he goes home.  There has to be proof that he qualifies for BiPap before insurance will pay for it. 
Jeff's liver enzymes were slightly elevated today.  There are instances when gall stones form in the liver and become blocked in the hepatic duct.  This can occur even if the gallbladder has been removed.  Jeff does not seem to have any increased pain or any other symptoms that would signify problems.  The labs will be repeated tomorrow.  If the lver enzymes continue to rise, Jeff will have an abdominal ultrasound.  
Jeff's jaw seems to be affected by tightness and increased tone.  It can be a challenge opening his mouth wide enough to do oral cares. This is a newer symptom and I'll speak more with the docs tomorrow. 
I took me 3 hours bathing him and doing other personal cares today. We are both tired. 
My brother, Ben, has volunteered to stay overnight with Jeff tonight and give me and Nick a break.  Ben arrived last Friday and will return to NYC this Friday.  He has been a huge help.
Feedings are going well.  So far the feedings have been regulated with a pump and delivered slowly.  Tomorrow the plan is to graduate him to bolus feedings. Jeff's discharge date will probably be pushed to Monday.  He still has not moved out of the intermediate care unit. 


June 8, 2010

Jeff is more alert today and he has been in good spirits.  The swelling in his extremities has gone down.  He is tolerating both the increased rate of his tube feedings and the reduction of pain medication.  His spasticity and increased tone in his legs continues to be an issue.  The docs are trying to find a happy medium with his dosage of valium.  It is important to relax his muscles but too much valium makes him very sleepy.  All labs are normal.  One of his antibiotics was discontinued and so was his nutrition through the central line.  I believe he is on the mend!  He may move out of the cardiac intermediate care unit tomorrow.

Thanks for all of the prayers.

June 7, 2007

Note from Anne:

Jeff had a restful night.  He used the BiPap for most of the night and I believe he was able to get some deeper sleep without feeling like he was air hungry.  His electolyte imbalances (magnesium and potassium) have normalized.  He continues to have edema so he will get another dose of lasix.  He has tolerated the meds through his feedng tube and tube feedings were started today at 4pm.  He will probably keep his central line until he's discharged just in case he has problems with his tube feedings.  He's developed a yeast infection on his bottom so more meds have been ordered.  I helped give him a thorough bed bath and shampoo today.  He sparkles and smells lovely but the activity wiped him out.  He is tapering off of his IV narcotics for pain. 
 
A hospital priest named Fr. Benny stopped by today and prayed for him.  The sacrament of the annointing of the sick was administered.

There will be many coversations about the care Jeff will require at home once he is discharged.  All of this is overwhelming and I'll just have to wait and see how everything evolves.  Jeff's care team wants our family to have extra help but insurance probably won't cover much, if anything.  Let's hope for a managable situation.

June 6, 2010

Note from Anne:

I'll break down Jeff's status in sections.

Comfort/Rest:  Jeff had a rough overnight but he has had a much more restful day today.  He does not require as much pain medication as he did yesterday.

Respiratory:   Very early this morning Jeff began having trouble with copius, thick secretions that were difficult to clear with suctioning.  Respiratory therapy started him on humidified oxygen to help loosen his oral secretions.  This did help and he has not required much suctioning since 1000 this morning.  Due to the surgery, his ALS progression, IV narcotics and  IV valium, he has had a slow respiratory rate.  His breathing muscles began tiring so he was given a BiPap machine to assist him for a couple of hours this afternoon.  He may use it for a while later tonight just to take some of the breathing work away while he sleeps.  The doctors don't think he'll need occasional BiPap assistance after a day or two. His chest x-ray showed that his lungs have some fluid in them but it is very minimal and Jeff has not had problems with of shortness of breath or significant oxygen desaturation. 
 
Labs/Vital signs: Most of his labs are improving.  He has some electrolyte imbalances that are being treated.  He has not had a fever for almost 24 hours and his pulse rate and blood pressure have come down. 

Gut: His ileus (decreased motility in his gut) has resolved and he began moving his bowels.  However, he continues to have quite a bit of air in his tummy and his large bowel is very dilated.  It was decided to resume all of his oral (feeding tube) medications but wait until tomorrow to start his tube feedings.  He will continue to receive nutrition through his central line today.  The IV valium has been changed to pill form so this should also help with his depressed respiratory rate.

Limbs:  His extremities are much more edematous today so he was given a dose of lasix which will help him pee some off some of the extra fluid.  His muscles are still very tight in his legs but both physical and occupational therapy saw him and were able to loosen him up and give him range of motion exercises.

Skin:  He has no evidence of skin breakdown which is amazing to me because of he is bedbound and immobile.  His one incisional site is still reddened but it has not worsened since noted yesterday.

Overall, he is improving on all fronts.  The physician thinks he'll be in the hospital for another 5-7 days.  He will continue to be treated with antibotics to ward off infection.  He remains on the cardiac intermediate care unit just because it makes sense to have him watched more closely right now. 

June 5, 2010

Note from Anne:

Today has been stressful.  It takes a lot of energy to manage Jeff’s care because the effects of his neuromuscular disease complicate the healing process. 

All current meds and future feedings through Jeff’s feeding tube are on hold because his symptoms and  the results of an abdominal x-ray are suggestive of an ileus.  However, it is important that he starts receiving some form of nutrition so a PICC line (central line) was placed so he can receive feedings by IV.   Medication adjustments continue to be made but it has been tricky for a variety of reasons that would take too long for me to explain.  Jeff has been moved to a cardiac intermediate care unit because of the fact that he is now receiving IV valium for his muscle stiffness, spasticity and increased tone.  It is necessary to have him closely monitored for side effects of the IV valium.  Physical therapy saw Jeff today and it does seem like the valium is helping his muscle related issues to some degree.  The valium is also relieving some of his agitation.  Jeff has had a lot of pain caused by the previous spillage of bile/gall stones from his torn gallbladder and current abdominal bloating.  He has been started on a second antibiotic because he began spiking a low grade fever and one of his incisional sites has some redness forming around it.  His labs don’t look too bad but his blood cell counts, blood cultures, liver enzymes, pancreatic enzyme, electrolytes, etc. continue to be assessed.  

Please pray for strength, rest, comfort, patience and healing. 


June 4, 2010

Note from Anne:

Surgery went fairly well.  Initially there was some concern that the surgeon would not be able to remove the gallbladder laparoscopically but it was successful.  Removing Jeff’s gallbladder the old fashioned way would likely be a much more difficult recovery for him.  The surgeon told me that Jeff’s gallbladder was in bad shape.  It was inflamed and thickened and had tears in it which caused leakage of bile and gall stones into his abdominal cavity.  Consequently, he may have some added pain and will require  IV antibiotics to prevent infection.

Jeff weaned from the ventilator after surgery but remains on some oxygen.  This is a normal expectation since his respiratory muscles are fatigued from the medications he has been given.

Jeff will need to clear several hurdles before going home.  This may be a bit of a challenge because of his ALS.  Keep those fingers crossed.  Estimated discharge from hospital is mid-late week next week.  

Thanks for the support and prayers. 

 

 


June 4, 2010

Note from Anne:

Jeff had a difficult time getting comfortable last evening.  He had some gas pain and is very stiff from being in a hospital bed for the last couple of days.  He was agitated and crabby--both understandable.  It seems like he has more spasticity in his muscles and this makes it tough to assist him in range of motion exercises (especially in his legs).  There are orders for both occupational and physicyal therapy postop.  Fortunately, he did have a decent night sleep once he found a position that soothed him.

Surgery was moved ahead to 8:40 this morning.  Now we play the waiting game for a few hours.  I am hoping that I'll be allowed in the recovery room with him after his operation.  I am an asset when it comes to communicating his needs.

More later.



June 3, 2010

Note from Anne:

Jeff's ERCP procedure yesterday was a success. A gall stone that had been obstructing his common bile duct was removed and a stint was placed to keep it open and hopefully help prevent further blockage.  Admission labs had shown elevated liver enzymes due to the blockage and bile backing up into the liver.  These labs have since improved.  He has  thus far been spared any pancreatic involvement which is a blessing. His fever has also improved but he remains on IV antibiotics.   His ventilator tube was removed easily after the procedure but he remains on a small amount of oxygen.  He has complained of minimal pain and the pain is well controlled with IV narcotics.   It was necessary to increase the dosage of one of his medications in order to get his oral secretions under control.  He had been requiring oral suctioning about every 5 minutes over several hours last evening. Jeff's sleep was restful overnight.

Today has been fairly uneventful.  Jeff is scheduled for surgery tomorrow morning to remove his gallbladder.  The doctors wanted to wait for surgery because possible complications are reduced if the gallbladder can have time to "calm down" (less inflamed and not as infected) before removal.

Please keep the prayers and well wishes going.  Thanks for all the love and support!




June 2, 2010

Note from Anne:

Jeff was admitted to the hospital last evening with epigastric pain, nausea and fever and subsequently was diagnosed with gallbladder disease.  Today he is having a procedure to help clear blockage (infection, bile, gall stones) from the ducts associated with his gallbladder. There are tentative plans to surgically remove his gallbladder on Friday morning. Hopefuly he won't deveop any complications associated with his bile ducts.   We are comforted knowing he has a comprehensive and thorough team of caregivers.
Please keep him in your prayers because general anesthesia is risky for persons with ALS.  It is unknown if Jeff will easily wean from the ventilator after the above surgeries. 

 
 
MAY 5, 2010

SENDING MY COMPUTER IN FOR SOME REPAIRS.  IT'S GOING TO TAKE 3-4 WEEKS.  JUST A HEADS UP, IF I DON'T RESPOND TO YOUR EMAILS. 





MAY 3, 2010

FUNNY THING HAPPENED THE OTHER DAY.  I HAVE THIS SIDE TABLE BY MY CHAIR, THATS SLID UNDER MY CHAIR TO SECURE.  I NOTICED A GLASS OF ICE WATER CLATTERING ON THE TABLE!  I JUST STARTED LAUGHING, AND CONTINUED TO WATCH THE GLASS!  I TUNE OUT MY MUSCLE TWITCHES FOR THE MOST PART, BUT THIS GOT MY ATTENTION. JUST A REMINDER HOW MUCH THIS DISEASE IS ATTACKING MY MUSCLES.  WOW!!  IM BEING ENTERTAINED BY A GLASS OF WATER!!
 


FYI  --Jake Marxen and Nick Marxen are running a 1/2 marathon on May 22nd.  They wish to raise some money for my benefit fund.  If you are interested, please visit runningforjeff.com .



APRIL 19, 2010

I WAS INFORMED TO WATCH 60 MINUTES LAST NIGHT.  THEY SHOWED 2  CONMEN PREYING ON ALS PATIENTS.  IF YOU WANT TO WATCH, GO TO THERE WEBPAGE.
 
FIRST OF ALL, I THOUGHT THE SHOW WAS REALLY GOOD.
SECOND OF ALL,  IF YOU WE'RE DYING, HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO TO TRY TO CURE IT? 
AFTER MY DIAGNOSIS, I SCOURED THE INTERNET JUST LIKE ALL ALS PATIENTS DO.  AFTER THE INITIAL SHOCK WEARS OFF, I FINALLY REALIZED I WAS CHASING A FALSE HOPE.
I FEEL HORRIBLE THAT PEOPLE SPEND THERE LIFE SAVINGS FOR NOTHING.
AS FAR AS THE CONMEN, I HAVENT BEEN THAT MAD IN A LONG TIME! THESE GUYS ARE FN SCUM!!!!!
ALTHOUGH I WAS WELL AWARE OF IT, IT'S DIFFERENT WHEN YOU SEE THEM LIE TO YOUR FACE.
 
ALL FOR NOW...CYA
 



APRIL 16, 2010

BEEN FEELING PRETTY GOOD LATELY!
WATCHING ALOT OF BASEBALL, EVEN THOUGH MY WHITE SOX ARE OFF TO A SLOW START!
NICK AND TY ARE GETTING READY TO WORK ON THE LAWN TOMORROW. ILL BE SUPERVISING FROM DECK!
ENJOY


APRIL 7, 2010

TWO YEARS AGO TODAY, I WAS SITTING AT THE MASTERS WITH MY LITTLE BROTHER ERIC. WATCHING ON TV TODAY BRINGS BACK ALOT OF GREAT MEMORIES. I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT TO THIS DAY.


APRIL 6, 2010

 BOTOX QUIT WORKING...TIME FOR A STRONGER DOSE. IN THE MEANTIME, BACK TO THE MEDS.
MY LEGS ARE STILL STRONG, BUT LOSING MUSCLE.  ITS AMAZING THAT WEEKS GO BY WITH NO NOTICABLE CHANGES, AND THEN ONE MORNING I WAKE UP AND MUSCLES ARE ALMOST GONE!
MY NECK MUSCLES ARE GETTING WEAKER TOO.  SPENDING MOST OF MY DAY IN MY RECLINER, I ONLY NOTICE WHEN SHOWERING AND COMPUTER USE.
I MADE THE MISTAKE OF BEING OUTSIDE TOO LONG EASTER AFTERNOON!! I LOOK LIKE A BURNT RACOON!!


April 4, 2010

Happy Easter!


MARCH 28, 2010


WENT TO SEE A GI DOCTOR LAST WEEK.  ITS BEEN A ROUGH WEEK WITH THE TRIAL AND ERROR WITH ANOTHER BATCH OF NEW MEDS. STARTING TO FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOW.
NICK WENT BACK TO IOWA TO VISIT FRIENDS AND FAMILY ON FRIDAY, RETURNING TUESDAY.
TYLER WENT GOLFING, AND TO WATCH BOYS STATE B-BALL FINALS SATURDAY.
ANNES BEEN BUSY STUDYING FOR WORK. SHES GOING BACK TO WORK THURSDAY. ITS GOING TO BE A BIG CHANGE FOR ALL OF US.
ALWAYS BUSY...


MARCH 20, 2010

BOTOX SEEMS TO BE WORKING..SO FAR SO GOOD!
 
TYLER HAS BEEN HOME ALL WEEK WITH SPRING BREAK.  HES BEEN LIKE A CAGED ANIMAL!  BUT I LOVE HAVING HIM HOME.
 
36 HOURS OF HOOPS IN 3 DAYS...WEARS A GUY OUT!  BY THE WAY, I THREW MY BRACKET AWAY THURSDAY.
 
SPRING FEVER HAS SET IN... 


MARCH 12, 2010

MY ALS APPOINTMENT WENT WELL LAST WEEK. NO SIGNIFICANT CHANGES TO REPORT.  MY DOCTOR SUGGESTED THAT I TRY BOTOX.  BOTOX CAN HELP WITH SALIVA IN ALS PATIENTS, AND ELIMINATE SOME WRINKLES IN MY FACE.(JUST KIDDING) 
TUESDAY I WENT IN FOR MY SHOTS.  THEY INJECTED FOUR SHOTS INTO MY SALIVARY GLANDS. IT TAKES A WEEK OR TWO TO SEE ANY RESULTS.  NOW I JUST WAIT AND SEE.  IM GETTING GOOD AT THAT!!!


FEB 28, 2010

FEELING BETTER SINCE MY HOSPITAL STAY.  OFF TO MY ALS CLINIC THIS WEEK..
I WENT TO TYLER'S LAST GAME FRIDAY.  I CANT BELIEVE IT'S OVER ALREADY.
HE'S ALREADY OFF TO HIT GOLF BALLS.
NICK STARTED TRAINING TODAY  FOR A HALF MARATHON THIS SPRING.
WATCHING THE OLYMPICS HAS BEEN FUN.
ENJOY


February 20, 2010

Note from Anne:

Jeff spent this past week in the hospital.  He's having problems with his gastointestinal system related to ALS progression, minimal mobility and side effects from medications.  I won't detail everything to allow Jeff some privacy.

This has been challenging week emotionally and physically for our family.  There are other issues that have surfaced since his hospitalization and some of them require constant and vigilant attention.  I can honestly say that I am worn out and in need of some renewed strength.  Thank God for Nick and Tyler!

Please keep us in your prayers.  As always, thank you for your support and kind words.


FEB 10, 2010
THE LAST FEW WEEKS I'VE BEEN BATTLING COMPUTER PROBLEMS. I ALSO GOT HIT WITH A STOMACH BUG IN THAT TIME TOO. EVERYTHING IS ALL GOOD NOW!! 
I SPEND MY DAYS IN A RECLINER WATCHING TV. THANK GOD FOR TIVO!! I GET OUT TO TYLERS GAMES. WATCHING HIM PLAY MAKES ME SO HAPPY.
I JUST READ THAT FRIDAY THEY STARTED TRANSPLANTING STEM CELLS INTO SPINAL CORDS OF ALS PATIENTS  IN THE U.S. 
ALWAYS GOOD NEWS...ENJOY   
 


JAN 18, 2010

FINALLY GOT OUT TO TYLERS GAME FRIDAY..GOING AGAIN TOMORROW..ITS MUCH EASIER TO GET OUT WHEN ITS 30, IN COMPARISON TO -30.
SOME OF MY GOOD BUDDIES MADE IT UPTO VISIT FROM DUBUQUE. I HAD A GREAT TIME BUT IT WAS TOUGH WHEN THEY LEFT.   
 


JAN 14, 2010

JUST THOUGHT ID DROP A NOTE TO SAY THANKS FOR THE CONSTANT THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.
 


January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!  Hopefully 2010 will bring laughter and love to all.

There have been many changes with Jeff's mobility over the past couple of weeks.  We are now using a hoyer lift to transfer him because he cannot walk anymore.  Standing is also difficult because the muscles in his legs and torso are so weak.  It seems we are always facing new challenges.  Thanks to those who continue to support us through our journey.




December 8, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff had his sleep study last night.  Good news---no breathing problems detected during sleep so he doesn't need BiPAP yet.

Ready or not, here comes winter!


DEC 4, 2009

WE STARTED PUTTING UP OUR CHRISTMAS THINGS TODAY.  I USUALLY HAVE IT DONE  BY NOW, SO IM DRIVING MY FAMILY NUTS.  I SUGGESTED DOING OUTSIDE LIGHTS WEEKS AGO WHEN IT WAS 60, I WAS JUST LAUGHED AT; NOW ITS 15 DEGREES OUT AND GUESS WHOSE LAUGHING!!  JUST KIDDING, THEIR DOING A GREAT JOB.  


NOVEMBER 26, 2009

HAPPY THANKSGIVING
 
ANNES FAMILY IN TOWN FOR THE WEEK. FOOD,FAMILY, AND FOOTBALL. THE THREE STAPLES FOR A GOOD THANKSGIVING. 
 
I ALWAYS HAVE ALOT TO BE THANKFUL FOR...   


November 22, 2009

Note from Anne:

It's been an emotional week.  Jeff had ALS clinic this past Thursday.  His breathing test did show some lower results so he will be having a sleep study in the next couple of weeks and will probably start using bi-pap.  He is again showing signs of increased weakness and fatigue.  There will be more changes to his routine to accomodate these observations and change isn't easy for him. 

Thanks to family and friends for being patient with our moods and shouldering some of the load we carry.  We love you!

Please keep in touch with Jeff by facebook or email.  He could use some extra TLC these days.





NOVEMBER 11, 2009

ANNE AND I STUMBLED UPON A GREAT WALKING TRAIL YESTERDAY IN CHANHASSEN.  WE TOOK ADVANTAGE OF THE 60 DEGREE DAY, ALTHOUGH IT GETS  COLD BY SUNSET.  AAH FRESH AIR!!  DOES A BODY GOOD..ENJOY


November 5, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff is generally becoming weaker.  He struggles with taking short steps and pivoting even with our help.  Despite daily range of motion exercises, he has decreased flexibility in the fingers of his right hand.  He has been complaining of pain in those fingers recently.  I believe it is a combination of stiffness and cramping.  This poses problems when he tries to operate his wheelchair and grasp his walker.

He is still able to enjoy pureed/soft food once a day although he is having more coughing spells with this.  He really has to focus on the coordination of breathing and swallowing.

Jeff’s sleep is becoming a little more restless.  He awakens frequently at night trying to get comfortable.  I’m suspicious that he may be having some oxygenation issues but he denies feeling short of breath.  We’ll see what his breathing test shows when he goes to ALS clinic on 11/19.

All of us have received the seasonal flu vaccine but the H1N1 vaccine has yet to become available to Jeff.  Fortunately, we have avoided illness in our house this fall.  It is imperative that Jeff not be exposed to colds/flu or else he could be in big trouble.

I’m sure many of you are aware that Jeff has a special communication device that allows him to contact friends and family through email, text messaging, facebook and this website.  He is addicted and he loves it! 

It is such a relief to have Nick home.  He has been a huge help.

Tyler is wrestling with many emotions because of Jeff’s decline.  However, he finds strength in his big brother and is more willing to help care for his dad lately.  I am so proud of him.

Take care and enjoy today!



OCT 30, 2009

I FINALLY GOT ON FACEBOOK...I CAN SEE WHY PEOPLE LIKE IT SO MUCH. .I TALKED TO PEOPLE I HAVEN'T SEEN  SINCE HIGH SCHOOL.  PRETTY AMAZING, IM SO OLD SCHOOL!!! 


OCT 27, 2009

DOCTOR VISIT YESTERDAY TO LOOK AT MY FEEDING TUBE.  ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR NOW, AND ANNE THOUGHT IT WASNT SEALING CORRECTLY.  SO WE WENT IN THINKING THAT THEYD TRY TO CAUTERIZE IT BETTER. IMAGINE THE PLEASURE OF BURNING AN OPEN WOUND ON YOUR STOMACH!  OH JOY...SO MY DOCTOR SAID  IT DOESNT LOOK BAD, SO IM THINKING COOL WERE OUTTA HERE. AS LEE CORSO WOULD SAY, NOT SO FAST MY FRIEND!! HE SAID, I CAN TRY TO PULL YOUR TUBE OUT AND PUT IN A NEW STYLE THAT WILL SEAL BETTER.  ANNE SAID I LOOKED LIKE A DEER IN HEAD LIGHTS WHEN HE SAID THAT.  IF I COULD TALK, I WOULD OF SAID, KNOCK YOURSELF OUT!!  WELL HE TRIED, BUT WASN'T ABLE TO DO IT.  

ENJOY           


OCT 26, 2009

BIRTHDAY WAS GREAT!  THANKS FOR ALL BIRTHDAY CARDS AND WISHES.  ANNES PARENTS WERE IN TOWN THURSDAY/FRIDAY. JANET YOUR CHILI ROCKS!!! I REQUESTED BISCUITS AND GRAVY, CHILI, AND DQ ICE CREAM CAKE FOR MY BIRTHDAY.  I GOT IT ALL, AND IT DIDNT DISAPPOINT!!  
 
SPENT THE WEEKEND WATCHING FOOTBALL.  I KNOW, HARD TO BELIEVE!!
SPEAKING OF FOOTBALL---HOW BOUT THEM HAWKEYES!!!  JUST WIN BABY!!
         


October 23, 2009

Happy 43rd birthday Jeff! 
All our love,

Anne, Nick and Tyler


OCT 20, 2009

TODAY WAS MASSAGE DAY. I'VE BEEN GETTING THEM FOR AWHILE NOW, AND THEY REALLY HELP. I FEEL LIKE A NEW MAN AFTER!  ATLEAST FOR A COUPLE DAYS.
 


OCT 19, 2009

ITS BEEN BUSY AROUND HERE. ANNE AND THE BOYS WERE DOING YARD WORK  ALL WEEKEND. OF COURSE THIS WAS DONE BEFORE AND AFTER THE HAWKEYE AND VIKINGS GAMES. WE STILL HAVE PRIORITIES YOU KNOW!! 
 
NICK BEING HOME HAS BEEN GREAT FOR ALL OF US. 
 
IM ON MY COMPUTER ALOT, SO FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME AT JKUENNEN@FRONTIERNET.NET  
ILL TRY TO RESPOND IN BETWEEN EPISODES OF SPORTSCENTER..


OCT 14, 2009

NICK MOVED BACK HOME YESTERDAY TO HELP WITH THE EVERYDAY GRIND OF THIS DISEASE. ITS SO GREAT TO HAVE HIM HOME.
 
AS MANY OF YOU KNOW I HAVE A COMMUNICATION DEVICE NOW. IT COULDN'T HAVE COME AT A BETTER TIME. I WAS GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE IT WAS EASIER TO UNDERSTAND OZZY OSBORNE. THIS DEVICE IS LIKE A LAPOP THAT ALLOWS ME TO SPEAK, E-MAIL, INTERNET, AND EVEN CONTROL THE TV. I CONTROL IT ALL WITH A LITTLE GREY DOT THATS STUCK TO MY FOREHEAD. RIGHT NOW I SIT IN MY RECLINER AND USE IT, BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES IT MOUNTS TO MY WHEELCHAIR.
 
GOTTA GO FOR NOW...
 
 


October 10, 2009

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE MY LAST ENTRY. ANNE HAS BEEN DOING A GREAT JOB KEEPING ALL OF YOU UPDATED. I WILL BE WRITING ALOT IN MY DIARY FROM THIS POINT ON.
FIRST THING I WANT TO DO IS THANK PIPELINE AND ALL THE PEOPLE THAT MADE THE GOLF BENEFIT SUCH A SUCCESS. ITS TRULY A WONDERFUL DAY FOR ME AND MY FAMILY.
I WOKE UP THIS MORNING TO 24 AND SNOW ON THE GROUND. WOW!! 


September 26, 2009

Note from Anne:

It's been a while since I've made an entry.  Life around the house was hectic and frustrating for a few weeks at the end of August and beginning week of this month.  I think Jeff is calmer and more comfortable with the many changes in his routine now. 

The golf benefit was exceptional!  Many thanks to all involved.  Jeff, Tyler, Nick and I feel very loved. 

I will post pictures from the benefit once I receive additional photos from family members.  Please forward any pics to me because I didn't take any myself.

Nick will move home in about two weeks to help me care for Jeff.  I am very excited to have all of us together as a family again.

Blessings to all!




August 18, 2009

Note from Anne:

I cannot believe how fast this summer is flying by.  I was able to spend a few short but wonderful days at Rainy Lake with my aunt and uncle a couple of weekends ago.  I fished like a mad woman and had better luck than usual.  Thanks to Jeff’s parents and some great friends for helping while I was away.  During my absence, Jeff had a surprise visit from his Aunts Marge and Aileen and Uncles Jim and Chris.  He said it was a lot of fun having them around.  

Two days after I returned home from Rainy, Tyler broke a bone in the pinky finger of his right hand.  The fractured bone is located below his knuckle and he’ll be in a cast for 2 weeks and then a buddy splint for probably another 2 weeks.  Luckily he is not in any pain and he’ll heal quickly.  His main concern is that he’ll be mended enough by Jeff’s benefit to play golf.

Jeff had another ALS clinic visit last Thursday.  There weren’t any big changes noted.  His breathing is holding steady so he doesn’t need any assistance (Bi-PAP) right now.  

I believe Jeff's communication device will get easier for him.  He has been playing with it and figuring out what he can do and what needs tweaking.  Our “communication guy” is coming out again on Friday to work with him again.

Jeff received his new wheelchair yesterday.  He is very frustrated.  There are several adjustments that will need to be made for it to be more comfortable for Jeff.  The guy that delivered the wheelchair was here for 2 ½ hours and tried his best yet there’s more to do.  Until we get this all worked out, Jeff will not use his new chair but will continue to use the old loner chair.

My dad has been here since last Friday and will be leaving for Chicago this Sunday to get ready to teach this fall.  My brother Ben arrives on August 24th and will leave on Sept. 9th.    And then…  I shudder to think what I’m going to do until Nick moves back.



July 30, 2009

Note from Anne:

Weare working out the kinks with Jeff's communication device.  The voice activated communication portion works well but accessing the internet and email using a headpointer has been frustrating to say the least.  We will keep plugging away at the problems but it may take some time to rid the stumbling blocks.

We are patiently awaiting the arrival of Jeff's new wheelchair.  Once we have the w/c,  the communication device can be mounted on it. We will also have a locking device mounted on the bottom of the chair for use in the van.  This will replace the 4-point restraints and make it easier to secure Jeff in the van.

I cannot stress enough how much I am grateful to my dad for helping out this summer. I am starting to get somewhat anxious anticipating his departure back to Chicago and Tyler starting high school because there will be limited assistance around the house.  Fortunately, Nick has accepted my invitation to move home after he graduates in December.

Jeff is exhibiting more personality changes related to his dementia.  Some days this really tests all of our limits.

We wish to send our thanks again to all of you who love and support us.  It strengthens us to know we are not in this journey alone.


July 14, 2009,

Note from Anne:

Jeff had an appointment with the pulmonologist today.  His biggest problem right now is thick secretions which prompt him to clear his throat often and sleep with the head of his bed at a 45 degree angle. Jeff's breathing muscles are weakening but he is not requiring any assistive devices yet. He has a follow up appointment in a month at his ALS clinic.

He received his communication device finally but is unable to use it until we have it programmed correctly.  Next Thursday we have someone coming over to assist with this.  Jeff cannot wait to access the internet!

Thanks again for your love and support.





July 4, 2009

Note from Anne:

Happy 4th! 

Not much to report these days.  It seems as if Jeff's getting weaker a little bit more every day and he requires much supervision for safety reasons.  His moods are more labile than they used to be but he is still lovable.  He is anxious to get his communication device so that he can surf the internet and read his emails and website guestbook himself.  The computer we have is not easily accessible to him anymore so he relies on me to update him.

Have a safe and fun holiday.




June 21, 2009

Note from Anne:

Thanks to each of you who helped care for Jeff and Tyler while I was in Dubuque attending the opening of Ben's art exhibit.  Ben is truly talented!

Jeff had a small mishap yesterday prior to my arrival back home.  He lost his balance and fell again.  He managed to jam his right thumb and sprain it but he is tough and doesn't complain of any pain.

Happy Father's Day to Jeff and all of the other great dads out there.




June 16, 2009

Note from Anne:

There's not much to report since the last diary entry.  Jeff has been holding steady as far as his health goes.

I haven't noticed any obvious changes in Jeff's breathing.  He has a follow up appointment with a pulmonologist in mid July.

Thanks to all of you who support us each and every day!




 

June 5, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff had his 3 month ALS clinic visit yesterday.  We did not anticipate hearing any surprising news, however, we did.  Jeff’s breathing test results showed that his breathing is now being affected by his ALS.  It is not clear how significant the change is at this time.  Jeff’s results do not exactly correlate with his symptoms.  In other words, Jeff doesn’t complain of shortness of breath and he denies having trouble sleeping at night, among other things.  I will be monitoring him closely when he sleeps over the next several days to see if he has episodes of gasping or seems to have a disruptive sleeping pattern.  Last night I observed him for about 3 hours.  He did breathe a little more heavily but nothing too alarming.

Jeff will be evaluated by  a pulmonologist in a few weeks to see if he needs to have a sleep study yet.  Eventually, a sleep study will be warranted but it is a one time deal and the timeliness of the study is important.  Jeff is also scheduled to return to the ALS clinic sooner than 3 months from now to be reevaluated. 

There will be a point when Jeff will require a machine to assist him with inhalation and exhalation.  The machine is called a Bi-PAP.  The breathing tests, sleep study and thorough history of any changes in Jeff’s respiratory status help determine when he will need the Bi-PAP.

Thank you for your prayers.



May 27, 2009

Note from Anne:

I hope everyone had a nice Memorial weekend.  Maureen, Russ and both of my parents were here visiting. 
Jeff is doing pretty well lately and has been enjoying the warm weather. He has healed from his previous fall.  The wheelchair accessible van and the platform lift really make life easier for him.
Thanks to all who continue to provide assistance to our family.


May 13, 2009

Note from Anne:

We spent too many hours in the ER last night and didn't get to bed until 2 a.m. Jeff took another hard fall which resulted in a deep chin laceration.  The impact also caused pain in his neck but the CT scan showed no injury.  Jeff bled quite a bit from his chin and also had a strange reaction after he was injected with numbing medicine for stitches.  His entire body began to tremor but he was conscious throughout the episode.  Blood tests revealed that he is somewhat dehydrated and anemic.  We are not sure what the cause is but he has a full physical scheduled for tomorrow morning.

My dad stayed home and calmed Tyler while our neighbor, Trevor, accompanied Jeff and me at the hospital.  Thank you for your assistance and moral support!

FYI-- We will finally be the proud owners of a wheelchair accessible van later today.  It couldn't be soon enough.



 

May 12, 2009

 

Note from Anne:

This past week went much smoother.   No big news to report about Jeff’s health.  My dad arrived on Mother’s Day and is here to help for the majority of the summer.  My brother Ben will be here for a month after my dad leaves in August.

If you are in Dubuque during Ben’s art exhibit, please stop by to browse.



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May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day to all the great moms out there! 




May 3, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff wishes he could type some of the entries in his diary but it is too difficult with the equipment we currently have.  Soon he will have a laptop communication device with wireless internet access.  ETA is mid-late June.  Hopefully the laptop will allow him to communicate more freely online.

It has been a terrible week but the week is now behind us.  Today was beautiful and we made it through without incident.  Thank God for small favors.

Thanks to those who helped us carry the load during the rough times this week.  We love you all!

April 26, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff has been feeling a little better each day since his concussion.  There are still some subtle signs that he has not completely recovered but he is happy to be home and not feeling lousy.

This week has been very busy.  The platform lift installation began this past Wednesday and hopefully it will be completed by tomorrow evening.  There have been a few glitches that contributed to the delay but all will be ironed out in the end.

I began shopping for a wheelchair accessible van.  There's a lot to consider for obvious reasons but I think I've found a dandy.  I'm hoping to purchase it by Friday if everything goes as planned.

Tyler has been obsessed with golf lately.  I neglected to mention that he got his first hole-in-one on Easter Sunday.  Tyler also had his first golf meet on Tuesday.  He took 1st place out of 60 players and finished with a score of 38 after 9 holes.  Not too bad for a kid who has never had lessons!

As always, thanks to those of you who have helped this damsel and her family over the past week.  The Kuennens would be lost without their family and friends!

April 18, 2009

Note from Anne:

Jeff was brought to the ER on Thursday (afternoon) after he began showing symptoms of a concussion.  He sustained a fall and bumped his head at about 2pm on Wednesday. He lost his balance when our dog jumped up to greet him after Jeff awakened from his nap.
He was dazed for a few seconds after the fall but was lucid.  Three neighbors came over and helped to get him up. One of them is a paramedic. Both the  paramedic and I concluded that Jeff seemed fine but that I'd keep a close eye on him in case he would begin to show signs of a head injury.
 
He began complaining of vertigo and then nausea as the day progressed on Thursday. I decided to bring him to the hospital and while in the ER he started asking the same questions repeatedly. The cat scan of his head showed no bleeding in the brain.  He was given medication to avert his nausea and dizziness.  Jeff was admitted with the diagnosis of a concussion.
 
Yesterday he had no further complaints of either nausea or dizziness but he was completely snowed and could barely keep his eyes open.  This was probably due to effects of the concussion and side effects from the meds he had on Thursday night to help with the nausea and dizziness. He stayed in the hospital another night mostly because of the concern that he was at risk for another fall due to his severe fatigue.
 
He returned home today about 1:30 pm and is currently comfortable and napping.  His only complaint is that he feels a little "spacey". 
 
Thanks to everyone for their help with Tyler and the dog while I stayed at the hospital with Jeff.  I am grateful for the phone calls/emails, the encouragement and the prayers.

April 16, 2009

Note from Anne:


The message below was sent to me by my Aunt Darcy.  It speaks volumes.


Creating What We Don’t Want

When Worry becomes A Prayer

If prayer is an intention that we announce to the universe in order to create a desired outcome, then our every thought is a prayer. This includes thoughts of worry as well as of hope. All thoughts are subtle creative energy. Some thoughts are more focused or repeated more often, gathering strength. Some are written down or spoken, giving them even greater power. Every thought we have is part of a process whereby we cocreate our experience and our reality with the universe. When we use our creative energy unconsciously, we create what is commonly known as self-fulfilling prophecy. In essence, when we worry, we are repeatedly praying and lending our energy to the creation of something we don’t want.

The good news is that we can retrain our minds and thoughts to focus our energy on what we do desire to bring into our lives. Since most worry is repetitive, it will take more than one positive thought to counteract the energy we’ve created. The simplest antidote to worry is affirmations. When we hold these positive thoughts, repeat them often, speak them and write them and refer to them throughout our day, we are using focused energy to create positive results.

We can start right away, together: I am a creative being, using my energy to cocreate a wonderful world. I know that I create my experience of life from within, and as I do so, I also create ripples of energy around me that echo into the world. My positive thoughts gather together with the thoughts and prayers of others, and together we create enough positive energy to heal not only our own lives but the world we share. I am grateful for the ability to cocreate good in my life and in the world.

A lot of times we have concerned loved ones that worry about us. When this happens they are also sending out a worry prayer to the world. A loving conversation letting them know what is happening is the easiest solution. Also, ask them to send you positive affirmations rather than worry about you. After all, worry doesn’t do them any good either. Explain to them that worry can actually be energetically harmful to you and that wishing good things for you is much more beneficial and much more fun too.


April 12, 2009

Happy Easter to all! It is gorgeous today.  Enjoy.

April 11, 2009

We just found out that the mother of our dear friend Nancy has stomach cancer.  Please keep the family in your prayers.

April 7, 2009
Note from Anne:

Good news for Jeff!  He has really shown benefits from his weekly massages and his range of motion exercises.  His arms and shoulders move easier and with less discomfort.  To all of our friends who lay their healing hands on him, THANK YOU!

Jeff's brothers, Eric and Jim, were here for a few days.  They were very helpful! 
It's great to have people take charge and lift some of the responsibility off of my shoulders.  Thanks for the laughs and the extra assistance.  I was able to get away and have some fun on Saturday with a friend from work.  She gave me a very generous gift from several of my coworkers to Spalon Montage.

My dad arrives tonight and my mom will fly here from Chicago Thursday night.  I am grateful that they have arranged their schedules to spend Easter weekend with us and provide additional help so I can get some much needed rest.  I've acquired a cold and spent all day yesterday with a migraine and neck stiffness.  Like Jeff, I have good days and bad.  I sent an S.O.S. to Jeff's massage therapist late yesterday afternoon.  She came over and relieved the majority of my pain.  She is a gem!

We have two power wheelchairs in our home that Jeff needs to trial.  The weather has not been warm enough for him to go outside and test them but the forecast shows a little heat wave coming our way this week. 

We are making huge progress with the lotsahelpinghands calendar.  Kudos to each of the coordinators who've spent a tremendous amount of time organizing our lives.  We are indebted to all of the members who volunteer to help us everyday.

March 29, 2009

Note from Anne:

 It has been a busy week. The ALS Association (MN Chapter) has a respite program that pays for 24 hours of service per month for PALS and their families.   We met with a nurse on Monday who will assist us in setting up home health aide visits covered through this respite program. 

Jeff was evaluated for a power wheelchair on Thursday. The w/c will be ordered to fit Jeff's unique needs and modifications will be made as his disease progresses.  His w/c probably won't be ready until June or July but we may be able to use a similar chair from the ALS Association's loan pool, in the meantime.

An occupational therapist visited our home on Friday.  Jeff now has a big button controller for his hospital bed.  This is so much easier for him to operate.  He also has a new alarm button that he uses to call for assistance within the house when people are not in the same room with him. 

My mom was here for a week and left this past Tuesday.  Jeff's parents arrived on Thursday and left early this am.  Many people have either called or emailed to send well wishes and support.  Others have sent cards, donations, flowers, food and hugs.  We have had friends and family volunteer their time to help organize our hectic schedule, clean our house and sweep out the garage. Another family took Tyler on a golf trip to Nevada. The list of angels that that watch over us is endless.

We thank you and love you all!

 

 

March 21, 2009

Note from Anne:

It has been a roller coaster ride this week. Our family has been hit with some difficult challenges that have really tested our resolve.  We are very thankful for all of the wonderful people who are taking many hours out of each day to help assist us.  It is difficult for me especially because I feel guilty for robbing others of their time for our benefit.  I wish my body was healthy so I could contribute more. 

We are in the process of implementing a user friendly and interactive calendar that will coordinate our needs to those who wish to volunteer.  A few members of Jeff's "Share The Care" group AKA "Jeff's Crue" are managing the calendar and it is their hope that the site will be ready for use early next week.  I will then post a link to the site for anyone who wishes to contribute.  Please spread the word.  We'll take all the help we can get. 

Thanks for all of the love and support you send our way!

March 15, 2009

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MARCH 5TH, 2009
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE MARXEN...AKA..."JUNIOR"
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HOPE ALL IS WELL N NYC...

MARCH 4TH, 2009
 GOT OUT OVER THE WEEKEND TO TYLER'S GAMES. SAME OLD STUFF HERE. GOT A MASSAGE TODAY. I LOOK FORWARD TO THAT. I'M NICE AND LOOSE NOW.
 WARMER WEATHER ON THE WAY...ENJOY

FEB 24TH, 2009
 I NOW HAVE A WHEELCHAIR....IT'S A HARD STEP FOR ME. I'VE BEEN DREADING THIS FOR AWHILE. I STILL WALK, BUT THIS COMES IN HANDY FOR GOING TO EVENTS. MY 1ST WHEELCHAIR RIDE WAS TO SEE MOTLEY CRUE, AND THEN THIS WEEKEND TO WATCH TY PLAY BALL. JUST AN UPDATE, GOTTA GO...CYA

FEB 20TH, 2009
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD...
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HAVE A GREAT TIME IN D.C. U OL FART...JUST KIDDIN!!
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I LOVE U

FEB 19TH, 2009
 LAST NIGHT I TOOK TYLER TO HIS 1ST CONCERT. MY ALL TIME FAVORITE BAND....MOTLEY CRUE.......CALL IT WEIRD, BUT IT'S JUST ANOTHER WAY FOR US TO BOND, AND SHOW HIM THINGS THAT I LIKED WHEN I WAS HIS AGE. WELL, I'M STILL A CRUE FAN. HE LOVED THE CONCERT. IT MADE MY NIGHT WHEN HE SAID "I'M SO PUMPED RIGHT NOW, THIS IS SO AWESOME" RIGHT BEFORE THEY TOOK THE STAGE. WHAT A GREAT NIGHT. THANKS TO MY GOOD FRIENDS DALE AND THERESA FOR MAKING IT HAPPEN. GOTTA GO...

FEB 9TH, 2009
 CONGRATS TO THE 8TH GRADE WACONIA TRAVELING BASKETBALL TEAM!!! THEY WON THE EDINA TOURNAMANT THIS WEEKEND. THEY DID SO BY BEATING THE LIKES OF HOPKINS, WAYZATA, AND CHASKA. ALL TOP A TEAMS IN THE STATE. TYLER HAD THE BEST OUTING  OF THE YEAR, INCLUDING 21 AGAINST HOPKINS. GOOD JOB BOYS, LOOKS LIKE THE HARD WORK IS PAYING OFF..QUITE THE TEAM EFFORT.
 

FEB 8TH, 2009
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HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY NICK!!!!!!!!!!!
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YOU'RE QUITE THE BIG BROTHER, AND SON. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU.
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LOVE YA JEFF

FEB 3RD, 2009
 WINTER IS GETN THE BEST OF ME NOW. I KNOW I SPEAK FOR A LOT PEOPLE WHEN I SAY THIS. IT'S BEEN A LONG WINTER, AND IT'S ONLY EARLY FEB. OH WELL, SUN N  FUN IS ON THE WAY.
 I'VE BEEN GETTING MASSAGES ONCE A WEEK...FEELS GREAT, JUST WISH IT LASTED FOR A FEW DAYS.
 MY FRIEND "MOLTEN" DROPPED OFF A BUNCH OF MOVIES. BETWEEN THAT AND NETFLIX, I SHOULD BE A MOVIE CRITIC.
 REALLY ENJOYED SUPERBOWL, ATLEAST A CLOSE GAME.
  GOTTA GO FOR NOW....ENJOY

JAN 29TH, 2009
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HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE OF 15 YEARS. STILL AS SEXY AS THE DAY I MET YOU..I LOVE YOU...
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JAN 26TH, 2009
 JUST GOT NEWS THAT 2 PEOPLE FROM MY SUPPORT GROUP PASSED AWAY OVER THE WEEKEND. IT'S ALWAYS TOUGH GETTING THAT NEWS, BUT IT'S SAD REALITY.
 MANY PEOPLE WHO READ THESE DIARIES TRY TO REACH OUT AND HELP IN SOME WAY. I APPRECIATE ALL THE EMAILS SUGGESTING IDEAS OF VITAMINS, TEAS, THERAPIES, ETC...TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, I'VE RESEARCHED AND TRIED SOME OF THEM. I WANT TO LIVE.....BUT I HAVE A FATAL DISEASE..IF SOMEBODY HAD THE CURE, THEY'D BE 2 THINGS. RICH AND FAMOUS.
 IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON...IF YOU SPEND ALL YOU'RE TIME TRYING TO CHASE STAYING ALIVE, YOU WON'T LIVE.

Jan 20th,2009
 Little recap of the last week. I got my Xmas present from Anne. She arranged an in home massage for me. Let's just say, it was so good that I arranged another one.
 The ear fluttering came back with a vingance for two days, but then quickly left. What a relief that was...
 Tyler was home for five days due to weather, conferences, and holiday. Anne's brother Jake, and kids came by Saturday to visit and bring some tastey food.
 Sunday was a big day for me...I went to Tyler's basketball tournament..They won it in OT by one..Then stopped at a friends house  to watch football for few hours and visit. I got to see some of my good buddies from Pipeline. It was a great day, but it kicked my ass.
 Gotta go for now..  

JAN 13TH, 2008
 I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT OF RESISTANCE STRETCHING WITH RUBBER STRAPS. i KEEP PUSHING THE LIMIT MORE EACH DAY. THE PAIN IS WORSE, BUT I THINK IT'S WHAT I NEED TO DO.
 LIL CRABBY LAST COUPLE DAYS...JUST GETS SO FRUSTRATING, BUT FINE NOW.
 HAD LOTS OF FRIENDS STOPPING BY TO VISIT..I DON'T TALK A WHOLE LOT, BUT I ENJOY IT.
 WE EVEN HAD THE CRUE THAT WENT TO CABO OVER FOR FONDUE SATURDAY..SO MUCH FUN.
 GOTTA GO FOR NOW...

Jan 6th, 2009
 Happy New Year...It was great start to 2009..Watching Iowa win the Outback Bowl with my dad.
 The trip to Iowa for the Christmas was a good change of scenery for me.  I  didn't get out much, but I got to spend some quality time with my mom, dad, and brother Jim. 
 I went to a party the day after Christmas at my good ol friend Jeff Hirsch's. He invited a bunch of our high school buddies. Laughed alot and had the best time.
 My body keeps going to hell right in front of me. I can't even open my hands all the way, due to muscle loss. My speech is getting so bad. I walk so slow and unsteady. It takes everything I have to shower, shave, and get dress everyday, and I still need help. Most days it's a challenge for me to finish my dinner, because I get so tired.
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 For the most part I try to stay upbeat. Every day is a new challenge for me, and my family.
 A quote I live by from my grandpa Arnie Kuennen..."Live each day as though it's your last."
 
 

Dec 22nd, 2008
 Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all. We're off to Iowa tomorrow.

Dec 19th, 2008
 Hope everybody's getn excited for Christmas, I know I am. A white christmas won't be a problem this year. Getting there may be. I just heard Dubuque got 10" of snow, and more on the way.
 I'm getting so stiff and sore. It's time for me to start movin. No reason to sit around and complain about it anymore. Never been one to start a New Year's resolution, but this year I am.
 

Dec 9th, 2008
 Had a nice weekend. Tyler's basketball team and parents came by Saturday to visit. We ordered pizza and watched football. I haven't been to the games this year, so it was so nice to see all of them. It made my day!!
 We just got 4" of snow and now it's going to get really cold. Oh well, we should have a white Christmas.
 Still feeling pretty good. My shoulders are getting so sore, that it's been hard to sleep. What's a person to do? Looking forward to Christmas, only two weeks away.

Dec 5th, 2008
 The ear fluttering and dizziness is gone. It's been a week, so I'm pretty sure I've seen the last of that.
 I'm having a tougher time with my shoulders getting so sore. I stretch constantly, but even that relief doesn't last long. The good thing is I can still walk, talk, and eat..not all at the same time though...lol..Much slower, but I still can.
 I also have been fitted for splints for my hands. I wear these to bed to keep my hands from cramping up. Seems to help so far.
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 On another note, Anne and I would like to remember the Beck family. Last year at this time,  Renee lost her mother in law to ALS. She is ALS volunteer who comes to visit every week.  Renee..you're my angel..Thank you so much.

Nov 30th, 2008
 Had a great Thanksgiving... Lots of food, family, and laughs.It's been a tough and trying year, but this holiday is what it's all about.  I have so much to be thankful for...I also want to thank everybody again for all their love and support this last year. I don't know where I'd be without it.

Nov 26th, 2008
 I had my tests done this am and everything came back fine. They put me through all kinds of balance and inner ear tests. I felt worse when I left the place. I now have fluttering in both ears.
 Anne and her mom have been cooking all day. Wow, does it smell good. I'm looking forward to eating all that great food.
 
 

Nov 24th, 2008
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HOW BOUT THOSE HAWKEYES!!!!!!!!!
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55-0 IS A BEAUTIFUL THING FOR A HAWKEYE FAN LIVIN IN GOPHER COUNTRY.
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Had a great weekend just hanging with my brother Eric, Anne, and Ty watchn football. I'm still feeling the same. I have good and bad days. If and when this ear problem goes away it'll much better. Looking forward to seeing all of Anne's family this week.
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DID I MENTION THE HAWKEYES BEAT MINNESOTA 55-0..Sorry had to throw that in there..it's gonna be a long basketball season.

Nov 18th, 2008
 Waiting for my MRI results. I went to the ENT doctor yesterday. My hearing is excellent. And they always said that the Motley Crue concerts would affect my hearing. Ha!! Going back next week for a 3 hour test with some new state of the art  balancing equipment.
 Gotta go for now..Still feeling the same...

Nov 13th, 2008
 Still feeling lousy. I went to my Doctor on Monday and they ruled out vertigo and all my labs came back fine. I'm going to get an MRI tomorrow night, and then off to Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor on Monday. Whatever it is, it's not a good feeling. I have a constant fluttering in my left ear, light headed, and weak. It's been 2 weeks today, and it's taking a toll.  I can't do anything without feeling worse, and Anne's unable to leave  of fear of me falling. Hopefully I get some answers soon. I'll keep you posted..

Nov 7th, 2008
Just a quick note from Anne about Jeff.....
Jeff continues to feel lousy.  He is weak and dizzy with some nausea on occasion.  He has had these symptoms for about a week when he began having fasciculations in his inner ear.  I suspect he may be experiencing vertigo but he could have a virus.  Who knows?  Anyway, he will be seen by his internist on Monday to try and sort this out.  In the meantime, your prayers and well wishes are most welcome!

Nov 4th, 2008
 Anne and I went to vote this am. I'm having one of those tough days. It seems to be every other day. I'm weaker, tired, and dizzy. The good thing is, my back is feeling better. Not a whole lot more to report. Get out to vote!!!

Nov 3rd, 2008
 Had a great day yesterday. A bunch of my friends came by with food and we sat around and watched football for a few hours. I love football and watching with my good friends makes even better.
 

Nov 2nd, 2008
 Last Tuesday I tripped getting out pf my recliner, but caught myself from falling. I pulled muscles in my lower back, and couldn't stand up. Wednesday I laid around all day and iced it.Thursday I got up to go to the doctor, and noticed this fluttering in my left ear. Now that I'm up, I noticed that I'm dizzy also.
 Well, here's an update from my 3 month checkup.
*Got a flu shot
*Looked at my back, just strained. RX should help.
*Told me that fluttering in my ear and my balance issues may go away, wait and see.
*Updated all my meds.
*Sending me to PT to loosen up my shoulders.
*Breathing still good. 84% down from last time..
*Looked at feeding tube, decided to cauterize some skin around it. Otherwise looks good. Hopefully you weren't eating while reading this.
Pretty much sums it up for now.

Oct 28th, 2008
 Just noticed that we've had over 10,000 visitors to the web page since we started it. Pretty impressive!! Thanks for stoppin by and sharing you're thoughts and prayers with me. Take care.....

Oct 26th, 2008
 Just hanging out all day watching football. Perfect day for it. Cold, windy, and first snow flurries of the year. Time to fly south with the birds.
 I celebrated my birthday several times this last week. Gotta love that.
 Not much on the health news right now. I go back for my 3 month check up this Thursday. I always hate that day. Not sure why I even go to it. Oh well..
 Thanks for all the birthday wishes... Enjoy

Oct 20th, 2008
 Frustrating times this weekend. Everything I do takes a toll on me. If I shower, I have to lay down for a while. When I get dressed, I get cramped up. When I eat, I can only go so long before my arms  get tired.  It's bad enough knowing you're dying, but not being able to do the  simple things in life is frustrating.
 These times are getting tougher on Anne and Tyler, because their here all the time. It's a constant reminder every hour of every day. Tyler has had to do a lot more around here, and at the same time watch his dad deteriorate. Then there's Anne. She not only does everything around here, she takes care of me and Tyler. What can  I say, I married an incredible woman. I don't know how she does it all.  I love you guys very much!!!!!!
 Thanks to everybody for the encouraging emails. They really make my day.

OCT 15TH, 2008
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HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY ERIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I LOVE YA BRO...
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OCT 13TH, 2008
 NEW PICTURES POSTED, IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW.
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I KNOW IT'S BEEN AWHILE, BUT I WENT TO DUBUQUE FOR THE WEEK. I WENT BACK WITH MY BROTHER AND MOM, AND CAUGHT A RIDE BACK LAST NIGHT WITH MY FRIEND DALE. WE DIDN'T TELL MY DAD I WAS COMING, HE WAS QUITE SURPRISED, MY OTHER BROTHER WAS IN IOWA ON BUSINESS, AND I SURPRISED HIM TOO. IT WAS A GREAT WEEK HANGING OUT WITH MY FAMILY.  ENJOYED A LOT OF GOOD WEATHER, FOOD, AND LAUGHS.
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HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER JIM!!!!!
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Oct 3rd, 2008
 Spent most of the week getting back on my feet. I feel pretty good now. Steve and Rak took me out fishing on lake Waconia for a few hours yesterday. It was so nice to just chill on the lake and enjoy all the leaves starting to change.
 Today my other brother Jim and mom come into town for a few days. I'm really looking forward to hanging out with them. I'll try to get the pictures from the golf benefit posted this weekend. Have a great weekend.
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Ok, let's get something straight!!!!
My good friend Donna keeps writing like I'm a Twins fan.....WRONG!!!!....
White Sox forever!!!! Al Central Champs.
She's just caught up in Cub mania..After last nights game, they could be done before the Sox.
All kidding aside, good luck to to biggest Cub fan I know..I love you Donna.
 

Sept 30, 2008
  The golf outing was top notch. Exactly what I'd expect from my friends from Pipeline!! The day started off a little chilly, but turned into a beautiful day. I rode around in a cart for 9 holes with Anne, and Jay McDonald(High School buddy). I live so close that I went home to rest for an hour, and was back before anybody finished golfing. Friends started showing up for dinner, and the golfers we're coming in from the course. The dinner was fabulous and the auction was even better. It becomes overwhelming when everybody wants to give you a hug and tell you how much they care. I broke down and cried for an hour straight. It turned out to be such a great day for me and my family. A day I won't forget...Thank you to all the people who made this possible.
 I ended this perfect day with a bonfire in my backyard with my parents, brother, and high school buddies. Thanks again to everybody..Enjoy..
PS: Check back for pictures...

Sept 25th, 2008
 Golf outing is this Sunday. I'm looking forward to seeing all my friends and family. Today one of my brothers flies in and Saturday my mom,dad, and Nick come in.
 I hear the golf event is full, but come for the dinner. Should be a lot of fun and the weather is supposed to be nice. I'm just going to hang out with my family for the next few days. Bonfires on a nice fall day..Gotta love that.
 If you can't make Sunday, check back next week for tons of pictures..Bye for now.

Sept 23rd, 2008
 I just heard that Wally Hilgenberg died from his battle with ALS today.Wally was a former Iowa Hawkeye and Minnesota Viking player. Everywhere I turn it's a constant reminder of this terrible disease. It's on Tv a lot lately because the ALS walk is Saturday.  I'm sure it's always been on, I'm just more aware of it now.
 Even my brother in law Ben's favorite MLB player Derrick Jeter broke Lou Gehrig's record this week before they closed the door's on Yankee stadium.
 Gotta go for now, Anne needs her computer back. Time to get a laptop..Later                              

Sept 16th, 2008
 This is one of those challenging days. My body is taking a hit, and you just can't stop it. It's so frustrating to watch your body go to hell..Mentally and physically it starts to drain you.
 Life right now is like a double edged sword...The more I do, the more I get tired...On the other hand..If I sit around, I get so stiff and sore..
 Trying to find the happy medium is the trick.
Everybody has challenges in life, and I guess I know what mine is from now on. This disease will win in the long run, but a long run is what it's going to be!!!!